MattiFreeman
01-20-2009, 08:24 AM
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be overwhelmed by the problems of the world, believing that the world is just too big, and I am just too small to be able to make a change
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the reason the world's problems seem so overwhelming, is because I am constantly overwhelmed by my own emotions, thoughts and feelings
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the reason the world has not changed is because everyone is overwhelmed by their own emotions, thoughts and feelings - and thus are too busy trying to remain happy / avoid conflict / avoid discomfort / avoid sadness / avoid depression / avoid poverty / stay entertained / have sex - to actually consider what is being collectively accepted and allowed in this world as: war, starvation, poverty, rape, greed, child abuse, animal abuse, destruction of nature
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that when I was born - I had no emotional / thought / feeling problems or issues to be overwhelmed by - and within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that all that I am and experience as my emotions / thoughts / feelings - all which overwhelms me and keeps me occupied, is a result of everything I have experienced / learned up to this point - and therefore I am responsible for all that I am here and now
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that every problem, issue, point of blame, opinion, judgment, definition, belief, idea I have about another actually has nothing to do with another, and is entirely what I have accepted and allowed within myself which I project onto others
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the act of speaking out against another, or acting out against another based on my own accepted and allowed problems, issues, blames, opinions, judgments, definitions, beliefs, ideas about another - is self dishonest - because in this I am not taking self responsibility for what I am accepting and allowing within myself which I am projecting onto another - but rather I am a slave to my own ideas, definitions, beliefs, opinions, judgments, problems, issues that I experience towards others
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the only reason I have formed opinions, beliefs, judgments, definitions, ideas about others, is because I have always formed opinions, beliefs, judgments, definitions, ideas about myself - which I have accepted and believed to be real - to be be who I really am - and therefore I believe my opinions, ideas, beliefs, judgments, definitions about others to be who they really are - instead of realizing that I am just projecting my own acceptances and allowances onto another
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to take responsibility for my ideas, definitions, beliefs, ideas, judgments about myself, and in this, give myself the gift of being self honest with me, so I can see, understand and sort out all my issues with myself - and also within this, I can see, understand, be self honest about, and sort out my issues that I am projecting onto others - so I can begin to express myself an live self honestly with me, and with others - instead of projecting and manipulating according to my own acceptances and allowances
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that everything that I am preoccupied with - the search for money, relationships, sex, comfort, entertainment, success, love, acceptance - consists of opinions, beliefs, desires and definitions of and about life that I have been taught through school, movies, television, books, magazines, other people - and that I am merely following the example set by others, believing I am living my own life, when I am really living according to everything everyone else is doing - which I have come to accept is the only way to live - because I have never actually realized who I really am for myself - because I have been programmed since birth with ideas, definitions, beliefs, desires, which I have come to define myself according to completely - and I now exist only for the purpose of serving and following my desires, definitions, beliefs of and about myself, this world, and life
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that everything I live for, is something that is presented and promoted by the world system, by the media, by others - and that the world system as it currently exists does not support all life equally - it is based in greed, control, inequality, programming people to remain slaves to the system, slaves to a programmed way of life so that no one actually stands up with common sense, and sees what we are all accepting and allowing to exist in this world as war, starvation, poverty, rape, child abuse, animal abuse, destruction of nature
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define war, poverty, starvation, rape, child abuse, animal abuse, destruction of nature as normal and acceptable, because such things have always existed and therefore that's the way things have always been and there's nothing we can do to stop such manifestations
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that if I took self responsibility to be honest with myself about all the ways I have been programmed by the system to live, I would be able to change my programming in self honesty under my own self direction in self awareness so that I am no longer supporting in my actions, a system which supports, accepts and allows war, starvation, poverty, rape, child molestation, animal abuse, destruction of nature
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that all the ways that I have been programmed to live by the system, are self interest - meaning I only consider my own needs, wants and desires for things and experiences which the system promotes and supports, instead of considering the truth of what is really and actually being accepted and allowed by all of us in this world to exist
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that as long as I exist in self interest, I will never consider what is best for all life as equal and one
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize the simplicity and common sense, that all life, all humans, all animals, all nature actually exists here in this world equally and one as one being - but through everyone's accepted and allowed self interested opinions, desires, judgments, beliefs - life is separated and devalued and inequality is created through our own self interested acceptances and allowances
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that this world will never change, unless all in this world stand up for all life equally and one - because otherwise abuse and separation will always exist - therefore it is actually my responsibility to change me, to change my very existence from one which serves and supports self interested desires, definitions, beliefs, ideas about life and living as promoted and presented by the system - to an existence of myself where I am here standing one and equal with all life, finding ways to act and live in this world in ways that support all life - transforming the current system through my own living example of change
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear death - and in my fear of death, spend all my time chasing after money, relationships, sex, success, entertainment, comfort - because I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed to believe that I as a being only exist for this one life and therefore must 'live fully' according to my accepted and allowed definitions, beliefs, ideas about life and living which I have been programmed with since birth
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that in seeking to 'live' as much as I can before I die, according to the definitions of life and living as presented to me by the system and programmed into me since birth - I am not actually living - I am only waiting for death, and trying to stay as comfortable and entertained as possible using what is made available to me by the system through me earning money - within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am actually a slave to money, and a slave to my own fear of impending death - I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that existing in such a way is normal, acceptable and that there is no other way to live
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I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the reason the world's problems seem so overwhelming, is because I am constantly overwhelmed by my own emotions, thoughts and feelings
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the reason the world has not changed is because everyone is overwhelmed by their own emotions, thoughts and feelings - and thus are too busy trying to remain happy / avoid conflict / avoid discomfort / avoid sadness / avoid depression / avoid poverty / stay entertained / have sex - to actually consider what is being collectively accepted and allowed in this world as: war, starvation, poverty, rape, greed, child abuse, animal abuse, destruction of nature
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that when I was born - I had no emotional / thought / feeling problems or issues to be overwhelmed by - and within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that all that I am and experience as my emotions / thoughts / feelings - all which overwhelms me and keeps me occupied, is a result of everything I have experienced / learned up to this point - and therefore I am responsible for all that I am here and now
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that every problem, issue, point of blame, opinion, judgment, definition, belief, idea I have about another actually has nothing to do with another, and is entirely what I have accepted and allowed within myself which I project onto others
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the act of speaking out against another, or acting out against another based on my own accepted and allowed problems, issues, blames, opinions, judgments, definitions, beliefs, ideas about another - is self dishonest - because in this I am not taking self responsibility for what I am accepting and allowing within myself which I am projecting onto another - but rather I am a slave to my own ideas, definitions, beliefs, opinions, judgments, problems, issues that I experience towards others
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the only reason I have formed opinions, beliefs, judgments, definitions, ideas about others, is because I have always formed opinions, beliefs, judgments, definitions, ideas about myself - which I have accepted and believed to be real - to be be who I really am - and therefore I believe my opinions, ideas, beliefs, judgments, definitions about others to be who they really are - instead of realizing that I am just projecting my own acceptances and allowances onto another
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to take responsibility for my ideas, definitions, beliefs, ideas, judgments about myself, and in this, give myself the gift of being self honest with me, so I can see, understand and sort out all my issues with myself - and also within this, I can see, understand, be self honest about, and sort out my issues that I am projecting onto others - so I can begin to express myself an live self honestly with me, and with others - instead of projecting and manipulating according to my own acceptances and allowances
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that everything that I am preoccupied with - the search for money, relationships, sex, comfort, entertainment, success, love, acceptance - consists of opinions, beliefs, desires and definitions of and about life that I have been taught through school, movies, television, books, magazines, other people - and that I am merely following the example set by others, believing I am living my own life, when I am really living according to everything everyone else is doing - which I have come to accept is the only way to live - because I have never actually realized who I really am for myself - because I have been programmed since birth with ideas, definitions, beliefs, desires, which I have come to define myself according to completely - and I now exist only for the purpose of serving and following my desires, definitions, beliefs of and about myself, this world, and life
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that everything I live for, is something that is presented and promoted by the world system, by the media, by others - and that the world system as it currently exists does not support all life equally - it is based in greed, control, inequality, programming people to remain slaves to the system, slaves to a programmed way of life so that no one actually stands up with common sense, and sees what we are all accepting and allowing to exist in this world as war, starvation, poverty, rape, child abuse, animal abuse, destruction of nature
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define war, poverty, starvation, rape, child abuse, animal abuse, destruction of nature as normal and acceptable, because such things have always existed and therefore that's the way things have always been and there's nothing we can do to stop such manifestations
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that if I took self responsibility to be honest with myself about all the ways I have been programmed by the system to live, I would be able to change my programming in self honesty under my own self direction in self awareness so that I am no longer supporting in my actions, a system which supports, accepts and allows war, starvation, poverty, rape, child molestation, animal abuse, destruction of nature
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that all the ways that I have been programmed to live by the system, are self interest - meaning I only consider my own needs, wants and desires for things and experiences which the system promotes and supports, instead of considering the truth of what is really and actually being accepted and allowed by all of us in this world to exist
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that as long as I exist in self interest, I will never consider what is best for all life as equal and one
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize the simplicity and common sense, that all life, all humans, all animals, all nature actually exists here in this world equally and one as one being - but through everyone's accepted and allowed self interested opinions, desires, judgments, beliefs - life is separated and devalued and inequality is created through our own self interested acceptances and allowances
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that this world will never change, unless all in this world stand up for all life equally and one - because otherwise abuse and separation will always exist - therefore it is actually my responsibility to change me, to change my very existence from one which serves and supports self interested desires, definitions, beliefs, ideas about life and living as promoted and presented by the system - to an existence of myself where I am here standing one and equal with all life, finding ways to act and live in this world in ways that support all life - transforming the current system through my own living example of change
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear death - and in my fear of death, spend all my time chasing after money, relationships, sex, success, entertainment, comfort - because I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed to believe that I as a being only exist for this one life and therefore must 'live fully' according to my accepted and allowed definitions, beliefs, ideas about life and living which I have been programmed with since birth
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that in seeking to 'live' as much as I can before I die, according to the definitions of life and living as presented to me by the system and programmed into me since birth - I am not actually living - I am only waiting for death, and trying to stay as comfortable and entertained as possible using what is made available to me by the system through me earning money - within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am actually a slave to money, and a slave to my own fear of impending death - I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that existing in such a way is normal, acceptable and that there is no other way to live
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on the desteni forum, we are sharing and discussing ways to live practical change in this world - starting with changing ourselves so that we no longer exist in self interest -- standing up for all life equally
join for discussion
www.desteni.co.za