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Aslmalkm..
i suffering from a very big problem for the past few years (was-was)
i know that i was wrong, i used to do alot of things which is not allowed, masturbating and roam around the house without doing Ghusl... i used to sleep on the beds, sit on the sofas going out in the car with the same na-pak halaat n my na-paki used to spread all over literaly, in that case i used to throw my cloths in dustbin coz dint want my cloths to be washed with my brothers as thy were na-pak.
(all my salary goes in these stupid things)

its been years that i have left praying namaz, if i discuss this topic to my close ones they say its was-was, but the reason im not praying n having was-was in my house is dirty even if i take a bath at last im going to be in the same na-pak house..

IM TOTALY BLANK, STRESSED ALL THE TIME...

"will i ever live a normal life, like the other good muslims who pray 5times aday n pray Quran"??

today i have decided to clean my house n buy new cloths so that i cant start my new life.
im getting married soon.

HOW SHOULD I CLEAN MY HOUSE, EACH AND EVERY CORNER IS NA-PAK... pleas HELP?