[Prealiitellg]

Since i have been doing so much reading like men who hate women and the women who love them,sociopath next door, Toxic in laws, and the infidelity sleuth just to name a few, I AM GETTING VERY PISSED, How the hell do these jerks think they can't just go around manipulating everything so they can still have in their eyes the best of both worlds. The more i read the more i see through my husband bull**** and i am starting to be consume by rage, i have attempted to put him in his place by changing the way i deal with him but at the end of the day i am not satisfied, i want revenge i want to shatter his world like he has done mine,To think that he can just sit their in my face an spin a web of lies to cover up the fact that he is a two timing creep is really starting to get under my skin,

i am really trying hard to hold it together as i am only a few weeks away from my vacation i have always wanted us to take and i am trying very hard not to explode before then but somehow i feel im losing sight of it all because with this new revelation i can see all the holes in his lies, i think about all the times i tried to justify him and minimize things thinking that hopefully i was wrong, but now i see im not i couldn't have been i have allowed this son of a b to dictate the whole situation i gave him the control to manipulate and deceive and has yet to see him endure any pain any hurt in frustration i am enraged how did i allow this to happen I am smarter than that

he twisted so many storied i questioned my own sanity, i cry now with anger not hurt and im scared that i will harm him he must feel what i've been living with for way too long i have spent money i did not have on trying to piece together his bullsh*t and to no avail nothing but added frustration, i feel someone in our inner circle knows of his true indiscretions and still wont say a damn thing.. and with reason i feel i owe them one as well to smile in my face and scheme with a schemer so he can hold on to his precious image while i sit here and type to yall about living in a world of negativity today im snappy i don't even wont to be around my kids because i am mean at the moment and they are not to blame so i sit secluded in a room of thoughts and anguish prepared to throw a tantrum like a kid i feel like breaking something, (preferably over his head)

i have masked my feelings for so long im not sure what to do, i now believe i have enough to walk way it has no been the solid evidence i wanted yet the lies is enough, but i would like to take this trip, i deserve atleast something, he promise to take me right before i caught wind to some of his bs, but somehow he never got around to booking the trip, and now i believe the only reason he offered was because he was doing wrong, and when i caught wind to his bs and the money fund became a problem he just couldn't seem to afford it but instead lied and said to me it was because i never booked it, yet once again that asshole never gave me the credit card...

So i took for me to come up with the money to book this trip which took me 2 years to do, and i forced him to pay the remainder of it with the income tax, He has already robbed me of my thoughts and i'll be damned to let him rob me of my trip, i've searched high and low the ow at first to cuss and act a fool, but then it all changed and now i searched for her only to make a her a reality, just so i can tell her she's more than welcome to have him as i have come to the conclusion no one is worth my sanity not even the only man i have ever loved, he's a egotistical self-centered jerk who thinks the world around praises him for being a stand up guy when i know the skeletons in his closet have to be running out of space.. and perhaps the lil tramp haves more space for his junk than i do....

Then i sit here and wonder why has it been so hard to find this woman and i can only think the worst because honestly i do not believe even someone like him would go to the extreme of hiding her, when he's had me wrapped so tight around his thumb that surely i would have more than likely gave him another chance, hell im still here aint i(i should break something over my own head) don't worry i wont, so why go to the extreme of changing numbers, and what women would do that for him if she was still loose as a goose and was seeing other man, and the more i think about it the more i envision a child because there is really only two things i think a man of his caliber would try to cover as much is 1 he's probably gay and most wives would never let that go, or perhaps he made another child, and im sure it's not the first one since i know it was a female who answered that phone, i don't know yall talk to me im spinning out of control

[Ztcgtqvb]

Are you planning on taking him on the vacation? If so, why?? Does he need a little rest from all the extracurricular activity he's been up too.

Seriously, a vacation with him along will just not work. You too will be fist fighting before the end of the first day. If he is cheating, you need to confront him, and begin work to oust him from your life. Good Luck

[Prealiitellg]

yeah well confronting gets no where so i just got get it together and tell him im leaving but i refuse to lose my trip, so im in a messed up predictament if i lose this vacation things will get ugly i assure you...i actually planned on telling him that it's over on our lastnight there, they say what happens in vegas stays in vegas so i was going to tell him you either drop your truth right here in vegas where i can leave it somewhat behind me and try to move on with my life or i will leave this marriage in vegas, and telll him to be honest even though i don't think i even owe him that much but for the sake of my kids im willing to take more time and contemplate this mess he's made out of our life, but no promises...because either way it's over i will not continue his denial , although i think he believes i'll never leave him but i will, i'll take my kids and he can support them and anything else we built together that he thinks i want is a figment of his imagination because he can just f-in keep it. im trying to raise a respectable son and girls who know their worth and obviously he's distorting with that picture

[gennickhif]

glad youre finally seeing the truth of it all.

[FloareTraurne]

You have every right to be as angry as you are... and smart not to believe anything he says. I wouldn't bother trying to get him to "drop his "truth""

If you are set on the vacation, just go, ignore him the best you can and see it as a new life start and he just happens to be around...

Let go of his $hit and try to focus on yourself and simple pleasures. He doesn't matter any more.

[Prealiitellg]

yeah i can see it all now lil things that i should have seen then for example when i first referred to the text on his phone, and he swore it was for a stag, for a friend, and since he booked his own before our wedding they all (his buddies) believed he had all the info, but that was from a club and i know the company he used for his stag which has nothing to do with that particular club different area different number, but yet i didn't think about that to the other day, silly me..he told me he wanted to work overtime to buy some tickets to an event but i later realized he charged them...so that was lie, and further more if he could take that charge card and go purchase the tickets for that event he could have booked our trip then as well, he only offered at the time to ease his mind, had to make himself feel good because he know he was up to no good, when he gets angry at in the midst of the conversation it's because he feels corner so he does what he has always done cold shoulder me or insult me and the last ploy i noticed is that he makes the accusation that i want out of the relationship, using it against me as a intimidation tact... but i'll give him what he wants he can sit here in this house alone, just him and his inner self and mull over his on behavior because i don't plan on being around here much longer, once again i'd like to thank yall, it so much easier to be able to tell someone about these trials and tribulations and not be ridiculed because your cheating spouse has not been able to put on a mask in front of everyone and make you look like the insane party