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Hello, SleepGOTweird.

My many feelings on the matter:

I guess I'm just looking for answers. Something to put energy into.

Developing OBE skills can be part of looking for answers. Read a few inspirational OBE authors - Robert Monroe, Kurt Leland for example work fine for me. Or for example Karen's OBE diary here on site - if that feels "closer to home" for you. If you can feel that it positively contributed to their "finding the answers," you might have an easier time considering it for your own inquiries as well.

I know nothing of astral projection, but I'm running out of rope, and that kind of experience might open doors of much needed awareness.

It might. Pursuing it for spiritual insight is one good motivation that might be helpful in having good and meaningful experiences.

There is much fear I'll continue to become more detached from those around me. Astral projection isn't something that anyone I know practices (atleast openly), or knows about.

That's normal. You will find for example reference to this issue in many of Kurt Leland's descriptions of his adventures out of body. Yet his life was enriched (and those of others) by what he experienced. In the end you also need to find peers or friends that you can share this experience with, and frankly, I think by being here you make a good start.

It does feel that I'm running away from it...it's just that, I know there is probably going to be alot of things I never wanted to see or know about.

Maybe. Maybe not. Depends on what you need to learn. But fear can be a sign of not starting something that might contribute to your growth. A silly yet known example - many people might remember being afraid of their first day at school. Their parents might have told them it's good for them, but at first it was all strange and unknown, and for some that's totally scary. In the end after the first week everything works out, but if all those people just stayed away from it because of the fear they felt, would it have been for their benefit?

Whenever you feel fear, first make sure whether you think it's dangerous. That's primal fear and serves to protect you. If it's not really dangerous, allow yourself pondering "What would happen if I did this?" Allow yourself to daydream, write a bit about it, explore the idea, see how exploring these possibilities makes you feel. Then maybe give it a try.

My life seems to be without any structure right now (it never had any). Apart of me knows that there will be a day when I'll jump in, but I thought it would be when I'd have my life in order. Could this....over complicate things?

Well, integrating this aspect into your life might help getting your life in order, who knows? It's all about getting helpful guidance - for example through dreams. Or through projections.

It's a point of no return, isn't it?

Maybe. It's not like you get sucked in and never return - that's what you make it sound like. Unless you were rather pushy and ambitious about what you want to accomplish and did things like meditate all the time or neglect your waking life for your dream/OBE life, it should be rather manageable in my opinion.

Take care,
Oliver