[NodePark]

Hey OHP. I hope this is just another attention getting post, and not really your true feelings because if I were to think this is a true cry for help, it would make me feel pretty sad. Sad because a Bloke I have known via FM can not see and/or understand the miracle of life and all the wonders within it. But also sad because you have no avenue in real life to reach out to and are forced to use the internet of all things to reach out for a very personal and problematic situation to a bunch of relative strangers.

Take note that life will always be what you make of it, even if you do not understand that now, it's the truth. Want a different life? A different mindset? A different way? Make it happen. If all else fails, and you can not find something to live for, find something to die for. At the very least your life will have meaning and would not be in vien. Good luck m8!

EDIT: By the way, I'm 36 and know what it's like to have the mondaine lifecycle seem bland and trying at times. However, a bit of hope goes a long way! Again, life is what you make of it. You want something different? Go get it!