[Centurnion]

Salaams, sorry for the late reply...I have been really sad...this job thing is just not happening for me, and so i've just absorbed myself in Allah swt and kept myself isolated ...I read the amal you gave me regularly after namaaz...but no jobs yet, I had one for two weeks and they asked me to leave although I was doing a really great job...Mr FususAlHikam, I do a job that could have gained many to be envious... I hope I'm wrong ... and who could've done something untoward ... for which I hope I am wrong ... and I would appreciate it if I could send you an email directly because you appear to be really on the right path ... for now, all I am doing is having complete Faith in my Allah swt... I call on Him and I call on my Nabi saw and my Shaykh Abdul Qadir Jilani ... and otherwise, I just sit not understanding what is going on and trying to train myself to have sabr because I am so heartbroken... I just can't be too information-driven here because google my name and voila everyone knows who I am and I am private although my job doesn't afford that privacy level. And I want to say again, thank you kindly for the amal... it means a lot to me and I read and kiss it every time I read it and believe in its effect and have utmost Faith in Allah... *Allah swt is all I truly have at this point*