I AM 17 YEARS OLD.. WILL BE 18 IN A FEW MONTHS.. I LIVE WITH MY MUM AND SISTER WHO IS 2 YEARS YOUNGER THAN me. WE DONT LIVE WITH THE FATHER.. MUM HAS BEEN SEPERATED FOR ALMOST 12 YEARS. my mum has always given my sister freedom in the sense of her own laptop..facebook..ipod etc... but never let her have a phone. she is currently in year 11 doing he GCSES. She's never been allowed a phone even though she has wanted one also we dont let her go out at all.. she just goes to school and back as far as wee know.. I am alot older and wiser and have done stupid things in the past and got in a lot of trouble.. alhamdulilah today I am a much better person and am in the process of sorting my self out and trying to be a good muslim or at least decent. I have always told mum not to give her a laptop etc .. but mum has always said I need to give her the trust and she wont break it even though the internet is full of rubbish and can influence a young persons mind in many bad ways. I have caught my sister with a phone just a couple of hours ago.. she over reacted and was crying and was obviously scared, shes woke my mum up too... younger sister is very gobby and just swears and says she dosent want to live with us nomore... the phone is full of males numbers.. she says there just numbers from facebook.. she has apparantly been in a years relationship with a boy and now coming into her second one.. by the looks of her texts.. she denies it though and says JUST FRIENDS. I FEEL SICK. I FEEL ANGRY. I FEEL UPSET AND HURT AND ABSOLOUTLEY HEARTBROKEN... BUT STILL shukar Alhamdulilah for everything Allah Soneh Paak gives me ... I cannot complain and I will not say why me or why our family.. or why has this happned... its just happned and even though I hate it .. its from Allah . I want to find every single one of these boys and cut off all of there fingers. I can do this.. I am not boasting but I am merley expressing what I feel like doing. Mum is still being nice to her and she is shouting at mum. Mum says shell try commiting suicide AGAIN like she did last time.. where she overdosed on pills at the time I thought it was due to girl problems and she was just upset.. mum covered it up and has now told me she did it because she was upset about some boy.. I have been arrested many times for many things, I have hurt many people, I havee done things which are bad in ''society and ''DEEN which is most important.. I used to make my mums life hell .. as a young angry man growing up.. I didnt have a male figure to show me the right path... i have learnt from my mistakes and beg for forgivness that Allah forgives me.. I am just trying to be the best possible son for my mother, so for the past year or two I have just got on with my studys and kept away from the bad crowd.. may Allah paak give me tofeeq to carry on this way. i really dont want to jeaoprdise things..in the sense that I want to get a good job and look after my mum. they are my world, they have done so much for me and have sacrificed there entire life... just to make things better for us.. they work 8-4 even later monday to fridays.. they be pretty much busy with work.. they are the breadwinner in the home and they also carry out as much domestic work as possible. I love my mum with all my heart, like I said they have worked very hard.. but I am so upset. about this phone buissnes with my sister.. she has been doing all this for I dont know how long! She says shes never met up with any guy.. who knows.. me personally i dont belive it ..like I said.. mum is scared she is going to top her self again and my sister is saying she wants to go in care and she hates us blablbla n she dosent want to stay with us.. she is emotionally blackmailing my mum.. I cant take charge and tell my mum wot to do.. I guess my job is to obey orders... my sister says she did it because she felt left out as other girls were doing it. another excuse was because I did it.. when I was about 14 years old I did have a few ''girl friends but I was young and silly and didnt understand that sorta stuff.. Since iv'e matured up I made a clean and strong intention that I will never mess around with a muslim sister again.. because they are other peoples sisters and I know I would hate it and I do.. and iv'e always belived what goes round comes round.. so maybe iv'e emotionally hurt other peoples sisters.. isit all just coming back around to my sister? ALLAH HU'AKBAR.. I have full faith I will get through this with the help of my Lord.. I am not a good person, I am a sinner but that dosent mean to say I havent got faith in my creator because I do. but i dont know how to tackle this... please help please I am so confused I was a very angry young man and used to swear and break things.. I used to have anger issues MAJOR ones .. I have come a great distance since then . but is this my fault? I think it is... maybe I didnt give her enough attention and she was seeking it elsewhere .. I was suppoised to be the father she never had but Iv'e blown it and look where we are today.. and now i overheard her talking to mum and she cant get over this boy who she was with for a year!!!! and trust me I know once a woman especially a woman.. once they've had a taste for boyfriends its very hard to get them to stop messing around, they become empotionally dependant .. and feel that they love this person and cant livewithout them . thats how it seems with my sister.. now shes had a taste will this carry on .. sneaking around.. i dont know somebody please plase help me