Bismillah You should always pray istikhara and rely on Allah SWT. If you have a spiritual guide, you can seek his help and go with his decision without thinking too much. One advise from elder sister of this forum. When we see three things, we should just go for it after praying istikhara 1) the person is deeni 2) you like him 3) parents approve We should not think too much lest shaitan takes over our mind and keeps confusing leaving us distressed. So just go with the decision of someone whom you trust if you cant decide on yourself after praying to Allah SWT and just rely on Allah SWT that there will be khair in it. Also continuous making duas that your marriage be filled with piety and pray for afiyah in both the worlds. Allahu alam I hope someone can advise you better. wassalam