[Angelinaaiiiiiiiii]

dear bro. chris,

may be u mean something else u only know from your expression:

an isolate alone in the study with heaps of books who then ...However, I do not feel comfortable with the praying and the religious side of the monastery... may u not see the true simple and most deep face of prayer, if u read and study only what the kind of study u mean,

the true study will lead u to prayer life in its deep meaning

st. Isaac say we can pray during studying and reading as this is part of ascetic life which help to separate from the world and be with god and this is the prayer.

also, st. basil in his life he lived the prayer life and the study