[grattperret]

I can't live anymore, there is NO WAY that the average person lives like me...

- I now sleep 12-16 hours a day
- I fall asleep everywhere
- I feel drained everyday
- I can't live my life the way I want to live it
- I'm very unexpressive and can no longer do school...especially that profession since being expressive is important...

Now I'm resorting to just learning Astral Projection, seriously energy works is the only thing that actually keeps me stable. I feel a good feeling over my body, the constant slipping in and out of trance feeling. I had realized why I got addicted to all this, because I didn't have a care in the world. Even though I never actually projected.

I think I've posted before about doing a lot of AP, but I'm at a point where I have no choice. Yesterday was the first time I've done Energy Works, last time was about 3 months ago. I did it and feel into the best trance ever, I seriously wanted to die just to stay in that feeling. It reminded me as to why I actually loved AP, there wasn't a problem in the world. Just me cutting in and out of different realities, never really anywhere, never really having a clue what was going on, just feeling a great.

My normal life I've always tried to improve, I've been doing self-improvement for a long while but all it does is make me bitter and frustrated. I'm basically constantly fighting against my mind, which is a never ending battle.

If anybody has ANY advice on AP or just general help, please leave feedback. This is my last cry for help because I'm just at a point where I want to just AP and forget about life...