[casinobonbone]

@nic, happy new year skinny b**th in the making!!! Just wanted to check on u and see if u've got the powdered gold yet!!

As for my absence on the forum:
#1. I've been naughty for the last 2 weeks!
#2. Been too ashamed to tell anyone
#3. I didn't wanna be hypocritical or pretend I'm doing that right thing by commenting about the protocol.

The one decent thing I can announce is I haven't gained from everything I've been cheating with. But I haven't lost either.
So I've basically been using HCG half assed! Eating right one day, screwing up the next! I'm very worried about what's gonna happen when I stop the shots!!! Will I gain the 15lbs I did lose!?
It's been 39 days. And I have skipped a dose each week. So I've gotta figure out what to do now.
I know I should stop and go into P3, but I'm scared!!
But I don't wanna stop! I wanna start over or keep going- but w/o the cheating part.
On another forum I visit many people do longer rounds. A few do up to 60 some days. But they 'say' they do it by the book *no cheating*! They also say they can do it cas they've got over 50-100 lbs to lose and don't stop until they've become immune or get to goal.
I've got about 15-20 more lbs to lose before I'm at pre-preg weight and even though I've been losing VERY slowly since the baby before the HCG, (btw he's 5 now and it's taken me all that time to lose 40 of the 75lbs I gained) with HCG I lost 15 in 3 -4 weeks!

Dose anyone have an opinion on either starting over now or continuing for a few more weeks.

And if I do start over how would u do it? Would u stop for a week or so and do a small load day? Or what???
Please don't be too mean to me, I've been mean to myself for far too long! I know I didn't do the right thing. I know this protocol is a PRIVILEGE not a right! I know I deserve whatever negative effects I get from not following protocol.
But still, I'd just like to hear any suggestions from u guys. Please
Thank u, xoxo Shannon


Shannon
Miamidecor@yahoo.com