[tabcdyop]

Hi again everone who cares.

Here's my final report on my psychological state in this thread:

The good news: Life is back to almost normal by now.
I got offered psychological therapeutical help by one really nice Poly member who read this thread. Finally, I didn't feel it to be the way I wanted to handle the situation, but again: Thank you for reaching out your hand, it was the starting point for me to make more active steps to solving the crisis.
So, I went to see a doctor, who prescribed me a "selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor" early in January. After some 10 days, my mood got better.
Additionally, on Jan.7, my wife's grandfather could go home (with 24h care), so ever since she visits him 1-2x/week, which is completely acceptable to me. Her psycho-colleague is still around but contact has been reduced to a normal level, so her ego-trip is within some boundaries. I think it helped that I didn't keep my mouth shut about the problems I have, so we could work out a compromise where everyone's needs are addressed.

As a third step, I decided to get a new perspective job-wise, supported both by my wife and my "boss" at university. I'm now taking up studies again, with pedagogical formation and Geography as a second subject, becoming a teacher. This should take me no longer than 5 semesters, since I already have a History PhD...
I'm not abandoning my institute completely but will finance myself by assisting a project on POWs in Early Modern Europe on a 10h/week basis, allowing me to survive this period and to remain in pipe for habilitation.