[juyrett]

So I started thinking about how I handled my situation just after DDay. I've read books and articles and found that I handled everything fairly typically, but I'm wondering more about all of us here. So, here are my questions:

How much weight did you lose/gain?
Did your sleep pattern change?
Did you become physically ill (flu/cold/pains?)
Did you struggle to go out in public?
Did you have thoughts of suicide?
Did you have thoughts of revenge?
So, here are my answers:

How much weight did you lose/gain? 37 lbs lost, 20 in the first month. In total, 23% of my body weight.

Did your sleep pattern change? Yes, dramatically. I couldn't fall asleep and I'd wake up at least 5 times each night, usually in a state of panic. Sometimes I'd start a fight when I woke up.

Did you become physically ill (flu/cold/pains?) Physical pains in my head, back and stomach.

Did you struggle to go out in public? Yes. I felt like a shell of myself and didn't want to deal with or see anyone, even strangers in the grocery store. I felt they could all tell I was an idiot and a loser (I no longer feel like this about myself, but those first two or three weeks are really mind blowing).

Did you have thoughts of suicide? Yes. I thought that if I was dead, the pain and instability would end. Never even came close to attempting it, but the thoughts would swirl every so often. This is long gone.

Did you have thoughts of revenge? HELL YES!!! I thought of starting a website dedicated to what a pig she is, of videotaping him in some very embarrassing situations and posting them online, of sending her messages to her kids, and so on. In the end, I'm glad I didn't do these things. I'm better than these people, and I'm going to behave as such.


Please feel free to add your own questions if I've forgotten any that you think are classic responses. I think this might help others that are new here and are thinking they're going insane.