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So in part of my crazy I look for signs of my ex best friend/husband's former OW on the internet. She has a unique name and is easy to find. I managed to find an old article from when she was with the guy she cheated on (with my hubby) and went to a show in the area he lived in. It's just over a year old, and she looks HORRIBLE in the picture.

You can tell she's sucking her stomach in, that she had gained weight, and she just looks awful. You'd think for being a make up artist she would look better than THAT!

My husband was very understanding and laughed when I said how horrible she looked. He asked me why I was so pleased and was almost gloating. The way I explained it to him was I was GLAD to see she gained weight because at least I knew she felt guilt for what she did to me. She LIED to me so many times about how she would never do that to me, and yet she did. It was crazy. I've seen more recent pictures of her (her new boytoy's facebook profile pic) and she still looks horrible. She has a very manish face and is just... ew. My husband has told me many times how blinded he was to how she looked, he just liked some parts of her personality (although very fake, if you ask me) because, he's realized now, I was the same.

Now, I know I have some extra weight on me and such, but if I were going to get my picture taken for an article like she did, I wouldn't wear something like that... it just made her look bad.

I probably should feel horrible for bashing her like I am, but damnit, I deserve to hate her. When I think about my husband's EA, I never think about what he did, he is still paying for it. I think about her lies and her deceit and how much I want to punch her in the damn face. LOL