[spamkillerf]

This is a very, very, very long thread so bare with me...I thank you in advance for just reading it and attempting to help me.

So, my problem had started near the beginning of high school [ grade 9 ]. Both my parents were heavily influencing me to become an Engineer due to my dad being an Engineer. Though, looking at his work i never really wanted to be an Engineer...I just never had a love for it. But at the time, they kept saying you'll be an "Engineer when you grow up"as a joke and what not...I never really took it seriously.

As i finished grade 10, i had decent marks (I had an 87% in math, 85% in science, and mid 80's in all my other courses). However, going into grade 11 (This is where university looks at marks) i had gotten a bad mark in my first math test. That and along with me slacking off, my parents then moved me to a private school so i can fast track all my core courses (courses universities would look at) in that one year. So really, i'd finish my grade 11 and 12 courses in that one year...And not do any electives. I protested and what not, but at the end of the day they forced me once more.

So i did what they told me, got high marks, and now grade 12 came along. I had an option to go to public school and finish my electives as well as 2 needed courses (calculus and physics). I warned my parents...I told them that the private school they sent me was too easy compared to everyone else. Hence, i chose to go to public school to really see the level of difficulty. As expected i got a 77% in calculus, and 64% in physics. My parents then blamed me for not trying hard enough, saying that the private school was not at fault. Even though i can swear by Allah's name that the private school was much, much easier.

Anyhow, things went wrong and due to my calculus mark being low i never got into any of the programs i applied to (Engineering, and business)...Even though my overall average was pretty good [ 89%]. So my dad did a last minute call, and somehow gave me the opportunity to get into an Engineering program at a university...But i'd need to re-do 2 courses over the summer prior to entering.

So until now, my parents had spent over $10 000 in my education. So, ofcourse, entering university they expected high marks in Engineering...However, due to them making me fast track all the needed courses, the last time i even looked at those courses was over 1.5 years ago...I did not remember anything. This obviously made things difficult leading to bad marks in my first semester. That and i never liked what i was doing. I mean, i really hated going to class everyday.

They constantly screamed at me saying how i screwed up with the high school marks, they invested so much in me and i didn't pull through. And i told them, that i was thankful for the money spent but

1) The marks were way too easy to get.
2) I really did try in high school for calculus (For physics i did slack off due to me assuming i'd get into business...Therefore not needing physics)

I then went up to them and told them to please stop making decisions for me. All my life they've always chosen what i should do...And it ended me up in a profession i hated. I then told them i'd like to go to business (A well known business school). And with my repeated marks, and if i get a job [I've already had 3 interviews [2 said they'd hire me], i should be able to get in. And if not, i can still transfer to another business school (not as good in ranking, but still able to get a high overall mark which could put me into law). They argued with me, saying i wouldn't be able to do it, that i'm lazy, i won't get a job and what not.

Now, i don't blame them for assuming that due to my past but i was determined...i had finally convinced them to let me drop out, get a job, and re-apply to the business school and other programs. Then now, only after a few days, they're forcing me to go into another program in January...Putting me in a tight position to once again to go into something i don't want to.

Now, becuase of me wanting to switch a lot of arguements have come becuase of this...From both sides. My mother saying if this family breaks it'll be becuase of me {They're saying i just want to defy them and not take advice}..And my father saying that he can't take the stress and will have to divorce to focus on his own needs {He lost his job the summer before going to university}.

Now, i understand where i'm wrong, but they always assume i'm wrong. It's really hard to type the whole situation on a thread, and i'm just really fustrated and said. It's clear my parents dislike me a lot, they always argue with me, they're at a point where its their way or i'm on the streets...All becuase i don't want to do what they want.

I'm very fustrated and need help, i understand not everything i write here is clear, but i'd like a third opinion.